Crazy dreams

So I've realized that I've had a reoccurring dream for years and years. It's pretty common that I dream about him and I've never put too much thought into the dreams until now. When I tell James that I dreamed about him, he teases me and always ask if the sex was good and better than it is with him. I always just roll my eyes and say my dream wasn't like that. And to be honest, I think only 1 or 2 of my numerous dreams have involved us having sex. So my dreams are always somewhat different, ie different locations, different time periods, different circumstances in general, but one main theme in every single one of them is we just talk. We learn about each other, we find out what each of us are thinking, have thought and wishes for our future. I love the feeling in my dream when I'm just getting "close" to him by learning everything about him and how he's feeling. So today I realize that those are my deepest desires regarding him. I so desperately want him to write me back because I want him open up to me like he does in my dreams. This is total rambling. Hope no one is actually reading this.