I guess I can't give this up yet...

Got a message from him out of the blue today. He asked about Jennifer Little :( :( :( Why does he want to know about her???? LOL.... So the story is that we both had massive crushes on him and we both knew about it. But she always had boyfriend and so her crush was slightly different then mine. But at some point in time, she was broken up with her boyfriend and somehow her and HIM met up one night at his place and they "hooked" up. I still remember the song that she said was playing. "One boy, one girl". Now whether this is true or not, I'm not sure, but I don't think she would lie to me and time has made me forget the details of how the evening came about. So I replied to his message telling him I didn't keep up with her while I was in college and that she had had a baby and then married a black guy. She's on FB, but I'm not "friends" with her, and honestly, I have no real desire to be friends with her. I have a feeling that she would ask me about HIM and I'm not in the mood to share right now ;)

Well I'll be damned!!

He's actually doing pretty well with the replies. He didn't even make we wait a whole week this time. He sent this last night.

i moved up here because i followed a girl up here. really it was simple economics at the time. long story. but anyways it was cool at first but i am growing more and more home sick. especially the more people i get in touch with on here, its hard sometimes. oh well. we shall see how it goes huh.

Didn't really know how to reply at first. I mean really, what do you say to that. Of course i wanted to ask him if he and the girl were still together, but I'm kind of assuming not or he might have called her his girlfriend. Anyways, I actually asked a lot more than I intended too. I didn't plan to ask about the work and Lorena stuff.

Sounds like it was serious with this girl if you moved so far away to be with her. Although I admit that it's really exciting to move away and live somewhere different. I sometimes wish we still lived in Seattle, but I know ultimately we are happier here closer to our families.

Hopefully you've met a lot of friends up there. I drove thru Kansas on my way to KC, MO. We got stuck on some freaking toll road right during lunch time and had to stop at the nastiest McDonald's in all of Kansas. Stupid google maps should have mentioned that fact when it recommended that route, lol.

Have you gotten in touch with anyone else we worked with? Honestly, I just don't have much desire. Although I will go and visit Lorena from time to time. She loves to see my kids. I'm sure she will be happy to hear that I've "talked" to you, and will be glad to know you're doing well.... theoretically. :)

My bad

So he replied to my last message, but only said that he's in Wichita, ks since July 2005. Of course I had to ask the obvious questions like why did he move there, what is he doing and how does he like living there. Still no reply to those questions. I swear it's like pulling teeth to get him to open up.

My reply

The hugs, no kisses, was probably too much but overall, I think it was a good reply. Crossing my fingers it doesn't take him forfucking ever to write back.

lol, please to be explaining what you meant by best you can tell, I'm still the same too. Understanding that statement would require me knowing more info then you have provided me :P

I did check out Xavier's fb page and wow, he's so adorable. Hard to believe he's the same age as you were when I first remember you from 8th grade. Yes, I recognized you, just can't remember if I ever told you that. Anyways, I use to have a myspace page and i was "friends" with Margaret so I'd seen pictures of him before.

So no more talk about 'sad crap'. You gonna avoid the where are you living question anymore or actually answer me? I know your profile says hometown wichita, but for some reason I was thinking that was where you lived before you moved to Mesquite. My memory ain't what it use to be. What about you? Do you find that you have a hard time remembering things from way back then? Of course some things I definitely remember like it was yesterday. I must have selective memories :)

Ok, no emo replies please. :o)
Hugs, no kisses.

Huh.... whadaya know???

Yes, he wrote back. My first reaction to his message is that I wish I could give him a big hug. He really seems like he needs one and I don't think we hugged each other enough when we knew each other. My second thought was, do I believe him when he says he searched for me by my maiden name. I want to!!! There's no reason to believe he had any reasons other than curiosity. Thirdly, I really want to know exactly what he meant by saying that it doesn't seem to him like I have changed. I wonder if he'll answer me if I ask him? Doubt it!! And lastly.... what the hell dude.... just tell me where you freaking live already!!!

lmao. thats pretty funny stuff. yeah im still the same way. and best i can tell you are too. lolz. its not really that i dont want to talk to you its just that i dont like talking about me not getting to see my kids. just sitting here now i realized its because i have to hold all of that emotion in, and talking about it kind of lets it come to the surface so to speak. anyways.... enough of that sad crap.
i cant believe its been that long either. in some ways it still seems like just yesterday. and in others i feel like father time is beating me down:) oh and im glad you found me too. i have honestly searched for you before but you are not mcdaniels anymore. so it was a no go.
my daughter is in santa fe nm. with her mother. i am allowed to see her whenever i can but thats not that much. she doesnt keep her from me i just cant get to her very often, for a number of reasons. dont care to list them. shes pretty ill put a pic up sometime. xavier is one of my friends on here you should check him out he is so big omg. the time sure has flown by. well the days drag by but the years pass rather quickly.

And I give up

I should have done this several messages ago, but I'm not planning on sending him another message ever unless he replies back to me. It's been 2 days since I said way more than I should have hoping it would compel him to reply. But he hasn't and now I feel so stupid. I'm giving up!!!

I sent him another message

I decided to just lay it all out. I really felt like I opened up to him in hopes that he would feel compelled to respond back to me. My "crazy dreams" have just been annoying the hell out of me lately and I just needed to get some of those things out. Here's my spew.

Titled Awww

Now you're just blowing me off. So now that you're in your 30's and not a kid anymore, what do you do for fun? I don't necessarily feel old, but it's hard for me to believe that it's been over 16 years since that first Christmas season at Penney's. And I still only know you from that time period and practically nothing from then on. You were always and from what I can tell, still are, very private. I guess that's why I feel like I'm constantly asking you questions and then slightly disappointed when you ignore them. Regardless, a huge part of me is just relieved to have found you on fb. Well I'm sure I've said to much already. Best to shut up now before I really embarrass myself, lmao. Write back bitch!!!!

Of course now I'm second guessing the last sentence. I probably should have put an emoticon after it. *sigh* Oh well. Nothings been posted on FB since my message was sent. Oh and I'm now wondering if he actually does live in Wichita, KS. He mentioned to Rosalie that the next time he was in town they could chill "sumtime", lol.